effy—-stonem:

Cook just kept on pacing around not paying attention to Effy just yet, he had to get his thoughts under control. All the shots and drugs he had done these past days seemed to have finally hit him hard or at least that was what he was blaming on. He didn’t want to think about another logic it had to be that; he took deep breaths trying to calm himself as he still paced around. Come on, man. You’re looking like fucking moron here…just do something he kept on telling himself before looking at Effy. He looked into her eyes and couldn’t help it any longer; he was mad, he was hurt, but most of all he was still in love with her. “Don’t you fuckin’ get it!? I still fuckin’ love you!” he shouted at her hoping she’d get it into her head. He walked straight towards her and crashed his lips into her as hard as he could, but pulled back after a few seconds, “I fucked up, Eff. I know and I’m fuckin’ sorry for it, but nothing good ever stays with me.” He said trying his best to keep the tears inside “You’re the best things that’s ever happened to me and I kissed that bird because I knew you’d leave eventually. I fucking love you, alright.” He shook his head feeling like a total prick for trying to forget her instead of actually fighting for her. He could never be able to forget her and he knew it now, it was always going to be Effy no matter what.

Effy looked at Cook, still confused by all of this. After the fight and everything he was starting to not make sense to her at all. She was taken back when he yelled but listening to his words and what he said shocked her even more, it’s not like she was ever expecting James Cook to ever say that. She shook her head as he walked toward her and pressed their lips together. As he pulled away she brought her hands to her lips and touched where he just kissed her, staring at him and listening. She shook her head as he talked, this was still kind of surreal for her but as he finished talking she walked up to him ‘I’m sorry too, I’m sorry I’m such a mindfuck but I-.. was so scared to get close to anyone because I’ve always been better on my own but..being on my own and without you was hell’ Effy let a few tears fall down her cheek and began to speak again ‘I fucking love you too, so much it scares me but…’ She took a few deep breaths, trying to get everything in her mind to settle down but it just wasn’t working ‘It always has been and..always will be you, Cook’ As she finished she smiled at him before pulling him closer to her by his shirt collar and pressing their lips together, deepening the kiss a bit 

Cook couldn’t believe what he just told her, but he was glad he did; she had to know how much she meant to him. He was taken back a bit when she stared to apologize to him, that was another thing he’d never thought he’d hear. He understood everything she told him because that was how he felt; they always seemed to have a lot of common with their feelings and loneliness but it worked for them. His heart broke as he watched a few tears fall from her cheek; he looked up at the night sky to keep his inside. Cook’s head snapped back to her as soon as he heard that it was always him; he smiled at her and before his knew it her lips were on his. He gently pushed her into the brick wall, as their kiss got more passionate; it was like they were telling each other how much they truly loved one another into that kiss. He didn’t want this to end, but the need of oxygen got the better of them; they pulled back and rested their forehead into each other’s. He smiled as he tried to catch his breath “Does this mean Cookie can go shagging any more fit birds?” he asked with a chuckle tying to make a joke before kissing her “I. Love. You. Eff.” He said in between kisses making sure she knew he had meant every word he said.

(via jaelynn---ramey)